It Can Always Be Worse

These days are combined with many volatile feelings, changing quicker than I change my boxers.  Since, I've never been good at managing my feelings, I feel as uncomfortable as sitting in a steaming sauna next to  a 94 year old naked, wrinkled great grandmother. Good one! So, I am unsure of how to navigate through this land mine of feelings.
To say in the past three months, I am feeling overwhelmed, angry, frustrated and cheated would be an accurate assessment. The culprit of this mosh pit of feelings is the end of an extremely difficult marriage filled with artificial love, deceit, chronic pain and chronic lying.
This is part of the healing process, however positive it may be in the end, feeling these emotions continuously for the past three months,  SUCKS!
If I have learned anything from past experiences, I must allow myself to feel the feelings that are overwhelming me, otherwise they continue to rise up and burden me endlessly.
I have always had a lot of success healing from difficult circumstances using music, writing, comedy and family as avenues to heal.
However, this time is different I need medical help navigating through the endless pain and now severe depression. The two are typical partners when dealing with chronic pain and there is no instruction manual when battling any chronic condition. I greet each situation of adversity with a deep breath and then I proceed to do the best I can, regardless of the outcome. Sometimes it's good enough but most of the time it is not, then I must accept the realty, regardless of what I like. Otherwise, I will become mental from trying to change something which I am not in control.
Well, I have one last component of surviving any bad situation. Once, I truly allow myself to feel the emotions evoked from the bad situation and I have allowed myself to cry over it then it is time to laugh. The old saying "it can always be worse" is one way I find closure on these situations. I love to make people laugh and I always have way before my Chronic Pain syndrome. I like to make jokes about everything, I use comedy as a way to work through the situations I cannot control. This strategy has worked well for me over the years. After feeling the emotions and then laughing at the adversity, there is only one thing left for me to do, and that is to spit in the eye of adversity. Then pick myself up, dust off then continue with doing the best I am able.