The Sea Of Paper

In my lifetime, I have seen at least a dozen specialists, applied for tax breaks, utilized the Human Rights Tribunal, involved in numerous tests and even consulted with Lawyers. I have seen, signed and delivered many pieces of paper over the past forty years and even kept afloat despite this Sea Of Paper (metaphors are not real, right?).

This Sea Of Paper is a very unstable body, made up of forms that range from the sublime, to the redundant and some simply ridiculous. This instability causes delays that mystify real life and causes this "one step forward and then two steps back" syndrome.
The condition initiated itself in 2001 and since 2010 was in a type of remission, where flare ups would be maybe two or three episodes per year.  Then completely unexpected, the condition had begun to metamorphisize itself from an IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) to a Whole Body Pain Syndrome.
I currently find myself as a recently separated middle aged man with a Whole body Pain Syndrome, applying for social assistance. Not necessarily the dream life, we all dream of as young and naive children. Regardless of the circumstances, I must feel humbled and appreciative, I even have a life.
However I believe - I can choose to continue or simply give up and take my life - The End. I choose to live and continue with my life. My two daughters, Annalise and Genevieve are my reasons to continue. I want to see them grow-up and of course have a great relationship with them both.
For now, I have plunged into the Sea of Paper and although I find it quite challenging, I feel I will get to the shore of my choice, one day.